How incredible amazing God is. Today had beautiful experiences in his glory again. I am not the mad man with crazy shouting every day and saying every single tiny little thing is because of God. You will see why I wanted to share the story again.

 

Today has cell group meeting. I went to church, Simon and Anya went for a walk, so we went out together. The weather was very beautiful, not hot not cold, the cloud was so pretty and stayed in the sky peacefully. I felt a little bit not going to cell and wanted to enjoy the beautiful time outside, but I knew I wouldn’t, I thought for discipline that time, but after the great time in cell I knew it was because of God’s guiding. I went to the church, sat on the sofa facing to the window, sun light was shining on my face, I felt so rejoiced and comfortable. Then the cell began, today’s welcome question was, what your favourite toy is when you are young. A brilliant question. Everyone was in joyful memory of the childhood. Even Andrew who is quite serious normally (I know he isn’t though, some others might feel that: ) also had a pleasant smelling face I surely knew it was from the heart. Well, people might say that this is the normal happy moment people have, there is nothing related to God. It might be, but let me carry on.

 

One of the experiences touched me was worship. Not because the worship was good, since the worship was holden by me I shouldn’t say it was good, haha, but because the God showed his glory and greatness in this worship. The thing was like this. Monday Anna sent the message to me to ask me whether I want to do the worship. I replied that I will decide tomorrow. I did want to do but I really didn’t know what I should do. Then I prayed, ask God to tell me whether I should do and if I should, how? I didn’t know when God is going to answer me but I didn’t worry that much, to be honest I don’t know it’s because of I am faithful or forgetful. But in that night God had answered me. I was lying on the bed, suddenly I had an idea! I thought of the song I like very much, Thank You for Saving Me. I wanted everyone to write down their own “sin” or just weakness, and keep or burn or tear or throw away the paper, to remember that Jesus had already forgiven us and he is saving us. Got the idea, next thing is music. I only have the song in mp3 form, but the speaker in trinity room (the place our cell group meet) only can connect to cd player. But I didn’t worry about that. I told myself, God gave me the idea to do the worship, he will solve the difficulties, no need to worry. Then Tom told me he has the cd so we can play by the machine. See, I said to myself, God will help me and solve the problem really no need to worry. But today when I got there we found that the cd player was being used by others in another room. So what should we do? I didn’t know but I don’t know why I really didn’t worry. After the welcome, it was my turn to do the worship. We still couldn’t get the cd player. Suddenly I got the idea. We had piano in that room, and we had Sam! The thing turned out to be that Sam played the piano and we sang. In the sun set, peaceful quiet room, we sang also peacefully and quietly, “thank you for saving me, what can I say?” everyone is in the worship to our great God with the beautiful piano. The feeling was 13 times better than we were just sitting there and listened to the sound from cd player. I always think one saying, which touched me so much, God’s plan for you is even better than the best you can imagine. I really, indeed, exactly, precisely, absolutely and definitely experienced this saying today.

 

One more thing, when I was just arrived at the church, Susie asked me what dose it mean the words on my t-shirt, “world without stranger”. I said I don’t know. After coming back to my room, suddenly I realised that the theme we discussed in the cell was exactly the same! We reviewed some verses in the bible, which related to Jesus taught people to treat stranger well. God said to Abram all people on earth will be blessed through him. This is what the meaning of “world without stranger”.

 

Brilliant!

Various kinds of people keep asking, Atheist, theist, newish Christian and even old Christian, where is the God? “Where is the God? Where is the God? I can't see him.” Look harder, HE IS HERE!

 

Atheists don't believe God's existence; theists believe but don't know where he is. Christians sometimes can't see him either because of the faith is not strong. In many cases, people do see the God and his amazing works, but we don't believe or don't realise that. Sometimes we require God to show us his existence, saying, "God, if you are here, show me." But what do we mean by "show me"? What do we expect from God? Miracles? Yes, but what do we mean by miracles? Does it mean that let us find a suitcase of money from the street? Does it mean that making us meet a prince or princess and marry them? Does it mean that we can move one thing without touching it, or can see a shining angel in front of us? Of course God can do all these things and sometimes he does do them to people, like sending angel and supply the things people really need. But that’s not the point, God does things as his own purpose which can glorify his kind and good, but not entertains people or fulfils our weird self-centred will. What’s more important is, he did and is doing and will do the miracles everyday in our life but we can’t see or don’t admit them.

 

I have too many stories to share which exactly showed the amazing working God had done in my life. All of them are small things, not having great amount of fortune, not raising dead of my relatives, but still incredible and absolutely amazing, and moreover, those things are changing our life.

 

Last year one day, my flatmate Anya’s friend who lives in Leamington Spa called Anya and asked Anya to meet her. She is the student of a biology program which is not in the main campus and has to live in Leamington in private house so that she can be closer to her research centre. Her all classmates are English and unfortunately, not like other friendly English we had met, they are the snobbish ones and very proud, everyone speaks crazily fast and she cannot understand anything. She had no friend in class and lived in a house with amazingly thin wall, so she can hear every single thing happened downstairs and next door, which made her impossible to study and rest. The stress of the study, unpleasant working environment and horrible accommodation really drew her mad. She felt so depressed and sad. She didn’t talk to any single human being more than one week. She sent email to Anya saying she really needs to talk to a friend. We thought she probably might go to suicide if the bad situations continue. Anya decided to go and I went with her. We planned to meet at 4 o’clock in the afternoon. But our bus was late, when we got on the bus it was 4 30, the way took at least half an hour. When we got there it was 5 30. We were totally hopeless, no one will wait for the people who are one and half hours late. We got off the bus, she is not there. We stood there for 10 minutes, she didn’t turn out. We walked across several blocks and couldn’t find her. We walked around the whole area she was not there. We were so disappointed and worried. We really didn’t know what she is going to do without seeing us and with extremely depressed. Anya asked should we go back. I said I don’t know, maybe just walked a little longer along the street. And I began to pray, I said my Lord, please let us see her, she is in hard time she needs to see us, please save her. But I knew it’s impossible, I had been given up already actually that time. After the praying we just kept walking with eyes’ on the ground. Suddenly a girl cried out “Anna?” It was she! She said she waited for more than one hour and don’t know what to do, she said she just felt she couldn’t go back to that place otherwise she would be crazy, and just walked along the street knowing nowhere to go. I can’t say how excited and surprised we were! God answered me immediately, he would never give up his children those turn to him. I can’t even describe how great the Lord is.

 

Indeed, too many stories, too many miracles, in my essays writing hard time, in football playing, even today, several hours ago, God was and is keeping doing amazing miracles to us. Maybe people will say that those are only luck or coincidence. I will say yes dear brother, you can say that, but God has done too many those things to everyone everyday, we just don’t admit it or don’t even pay attention to it. You might say that I am using God to fit the explanations to the coincidences, but I would say maybe it’s you are taking coincidence to ignore God’s existence.

 

I felt and am feeling peace and secure in the glory of God. I know that he is just here, right here, surrounding me, so there is nothing can be worried about and afraid of. But I’m not saying my life will be perfectly good and everything will go well in the future. I’m very sure that I will lose faith, be disappointed, discouraged, afraid, worried, complained; just because I am just a human with lots of weakness, this is not finding excuses for my weakness, but knowing that we are not “something”. But I know God knows our weakness much better than ourselves, he will be merciful and understand and won’t give up any of us. He will be with us still and always, direct us, courage us, forever and ever.

 

晚饭后又逛到郑钧的博客，动机很低下，就是想看看骂战有什么新进展，却看到了郑钧的新歌奴隶努力的MV。

 

感觉是，郑钧怎么越唱越倒退了。歌词基本讲的是十几岁小年轻那状态的人刚步入社会的心气和迷茫，音乐...基本没什么音乐。乐队是一群清一色长发跳来跳去也看不清脸，台上所有人都蹦的欢，郑钧一个劲的甩头，“庞克”得很。这哪是郑钧，怎么和地下婴儿那样的一个群的了。台下是一群人演观众，从始至终就是在挥舞手臂，但总感觉那么麻木不仁，要死一样，镜头还老对准一个胖子，颇相我膘最厚的那个时候，想起一句话：“看到你无耻的样子颇有我年轻时候的神韵”。可能郑钧是开演唱会开上瘾了，沉迷上玩命的甩头和用高音。老郑，快四十的人了啊。

 

倒不是说四十的男人就不能留长发了，也不是说四十的男人就不能甩头不能唱歌音量在大点了，关键问题在歌本身。本来郑钧的变化还让人看着挺清晰，从“郑钧＝zj” 开始就能感到和以前的不一样，后来的“我们的生活充满阳光”，全是老歌，虽然都是翻唱，但感觉也还严肃，挺好。现在新歌出来不仅让人感觉倒退，还走样了，一副年轻小朋克的乐队风格，还是那种让人听了第一遍没什么欲望再听第二遍的样子。当然新专辑别的歌还没听过，不过就这首来看，大概是不会买了。专辑可能都有这特点，越出越不能买，许巍看似也没能避免了这趋势。朴树暂时还好，不过可能也因为他出的少，就两张，暂时还成。

 

听郑钧的应该有一些人是有一定岁数的了，听了十几年的肯定有，十几年又听到现在这状态，心酸的也肯定是有的。

 

PS,随眼瞟了一下这首新歌下面的评论，没几个人说歌的，全绞在郑钧和杨二车娜母的骂战里，你前世今生都没见过脏话在这都能见到。确实没劲极了。实在不该在吃饱饭之后看这些东西，怕忍不住吃的都浪费了，不对，任何时候都不该看这些东西，感觉“一夜回到解放前”。罢了。

 

晚上突然想起来，去逛逛博客。

 

老冀的看来还沉浸在“离人”那档子事儿上，人要走了舍不得又不想挑明，其实形势已经很明晰了，要死要活干罢，上次和阿颜好说歹说扯了一下午，不过人各有自己的行事方式，老冀的方式，不支持，但也能理解，仅祝好运罢。Cat的博客还是电影风格，我属于偶尔遇上个片儿浅显易懂的看看自己美一美，真的好电影还是不太敢染指，耐性也差，不想糟践了好电影，于是Cat的影评也看不完，看看几段扯感情的然后一块儿缅怀一下还不错。仨儿的博客厉害，一天更新三次（想来我今天也差不多这速度了），下一千字的还不写，每次基本上蛮有兴致的看上几段，然后开始串行，一般看到最后都是无言以对的感觉，所以也就不敢留言了，不过给仨儿留言的贼多，美女作家就是这效果。然后逛到郑钧汪峰的，这两人的地盘有半年没去逛过了，郑钧忙着应付杨二什么娜母什么车还有韩寒那点儿事儿，留言的一会儿劝架一会儿“郑哥”一会儿骂韩寒一会儿郑钧你丫伪摇滚什么的，韩寒的东西一片没读过，而郑钧不管伪不伪摇滚，两者我死也没想过会搭上界，这回开了眼界了。汪峰依然摆着美丽世界的孤儿的架势美着孤着，黏糊糊甜丝丝酸溜溜的文字依然难以完成全篇的阅读，看字不如听歌轻松，算了，费那劲，不过照片到让我想起一张碟的封面...

 

找到那张碟放进机子里，睡觉。

 

有段日子没见大胡的博客更新的，那个地方，是真想念。

转自一个朋友的博客，他也是转的，不知道原创是谁，几米？可能是。还有一个很可爱的故事，叫，我喜欢你，网上有，我把网址贴在书单里。 爱,有时候,真的不能去比较的...单纯最美..!! 故事发生在一个和寻常无异的夜晚......　　 　 小兔子要上床睡觉了； 它紧紧抓著大兔子的长耳朵，要大兔子好好地听它说 [猜猜我有多爱你？」小兔子问。　　 [噢！我大概猜不出来。」大兔子笑笑地说。　　 [我爱你这么多。」小兔子把手臂张开，开得不能再开。 大兔子有双更长的手臂，它张开来一比，说：「可是，我爱你这么多。」　　 小兔子动动右耳，想：嗯，这真的很多。　　 [我爱你，像我举的这么高，高得不能再高。」小兔子说，双臂用力往上撑举。 小兔子笑了起来，说：「我爱你像我跳得那么高，高得不能再高。」它跳过来又跳过去。 大兔子笑著说：「可是，我爱你，像我跳得这么高，高得不能再高。」他往上一跳，耳朵都碰到树枝了。　　 跳得真高哇－－小兔子想－－真希望我也可以跳得像它一样高。　　 小兔子大叫：「我爱你，一直到过了小路，在远远的河那边。」　　 大兔子说：「我爱你，一直到过了小河，越过山的那一边。」　　 小兔子想，那真的好远。它揉揉红红的两眼，开始困了，想不出来了；　 　 它抬头看著树丛后面那一大片的黑夜，觉得再也没有任何东西比天空更远的了。　　 大兔子轻轻抱起频频打著呵欠的小兔子，小兔子闭上了眼睛，在进入梦乡前，喃喃说：我爱你，从这里一直到月亮。」　　 噢！那么远，」大兔子说。「真的非常远、非常远。」　　 大兔子轻轻将小兔子放到叶子铺成的床上，低下头来，亲亲它，祝它晚安。 然后，大兔子躺在小兔子的旁边，小声地微笑著说： 「我爱你，从这里一直到月亮，再……绕回来。」

 

Watch the film the Passion of Christ, having a lot of feelings but can say none...

 

When I prayed or sang, saying thank you Lord for all the things you've done to us, for all you suffer for us, but i seldom really think what and how they are. But now I have a direct feeling and image bout this. I really don't feel we are worthy for him to do and have done these. Human are weak and selfish and ugly and sinful, i really don't think it's worthy. But for him, he feels it's worthy, how he loves his children. Once Andrew told me that for the Lord, people are much more important than Angel. I was so touched. Angel are so pure and bright and beautiful, but PEOPLE are more important and bear more love and care from him.

 

I am very sure about the love from God to people, but I don't really sure we are worthy, but since he did and does love us so much, we should share and hold and keep this love, unfailing love, forever and ever.

 

Lord Jesus, thank you.