从二月开始，就进入了一个变化的时期。

 

那会儿给朋友们预言的变化很多都实现了，以至于有人说“不会他妈这么神把”，是挺神的。不过四月是最后期限，五月初是开花结果的时候，所以该有什么不该有什么最晚四月就要显现了。可能这就是“四月物语”的由来，松隆子在这个时候去了新的学校，找到了武藏书店，找到了他。我也以为四月有“物语”来着，转眼间这就过去了。明天是四月的最后一天。这个四月就在论文中昏天黑地的过去了，到今天看到四月的尾巴，也还是什么都没有抓住。

 

既然过去了，就别再想了。

 

四月的最后一天怎么过？还有一片小论文，搞一搞，昏天黑地的也就又过去了...

 

Change the song. It's Let it be, but not Beatles, it's Nick Cave.

 

I don't really know when did Beatles write this song, the words filled with peace and wisdom, it doesn't like can be writen by the writer who said "We are more famous than Jesus". Maybe when they wrote this song, they had enough experiences and no longer the brainless youh. But still, until I listened to the one sung by Nicak Cave, I began to like this song.

 

"When I find myself in times of trouble

Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom

Let it be

In my hour of darkness She is

Standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom

Let it be"

 

Yes it is, just let it be...

 

首先我声明自己是AC米兰的球迷。

 

其次真诚的祝贺国际米兰赢得本赛季意甲冠军。

 

不管人们认为今年意甲如何特殊，尤文图斯不在意甲，AC米兰遇到种种麻烦，等等，争论说多无益，我依然认为国米确实经历了一个伟大的赛季。国米的冠军来自于国米本赛季出色的表现，极其稳定的状态，这是不可否认的事实。即便是过去的尤文和状态正常的米兰，在对阵其他变化并不大的球队时的成绩和稳定性都没有今年国米这样出色，这点没有疑问。

 

只是一个细节让我想起一些东西，并不是想要给国米泼冷水或者因为米兰本赛季成绩不佳而眼红，只是一点真实想法而已。这个细节关于大国米时代。在新浪的网站国米夺冠专题的视频主页，标题是梦回大国米时代。虽然只是一家媒体的态度，但我相信很多国米球迷也是这样想。这让我想起一个情节，不记得是哪一年，前几年吧，国米就出过一个VCD，好像是庆祝夺得意大利杯冠军，坦率说那时此事成为一个不大不小的笑柄，因为国米在很长时间没有获得与其名望相符合得冠军了，仅仅一个意大利杯冠军也让这家俱乐部出一个专辑庆祝。这让人有一种对国米底气不足的感觉。换句话说就是没有王者气质，给点阳光就灿烂。尤文和米兰在这几年获得的荣誉没必要再提，只是他们都没有那样大阵势的庆祝过。今年国米得到意甲冠军，这个冠军的分量毫无疑问是足以显耀光荣的，这次出个什么DVD，纪念册什么的都不为过，可是大国际时代又被提出来。客观来说“大XX”这个称谓确实有点大，类似王朝之类。平心而论，前几个赛季的米兰，02－03夺得意甲冠军，03－04夺得冠军杯冠军，称谓米兰王朝我都觉得有些不妥，如果04－05赛季再来个什么才能有资格这样称呼，可惜被利物浦搅了局。真正的王朝在我印象中，本人看球不长见识不多，只有80年代末90年代初的米兰才算得上，当然其他俱乐部在不同的时候的王朝时期也有但我不清楚就不说了。一个王朝或者所谓“大”时代不是一次两次冠军就能成就的。冠军值得尊敬，更值得大肆庆祝，可是有的名称还是慎用的好。

 

当然我明白肯定不是所有国米球迷都觉得“大国际”了，相信所有的国米球迷都更希望在下赛季再夺得骄人的成绩，特别是冠军杯，但庆祝之余，头脑还是要冷静的。如果下赛季国米在复制一次本赛季的成绩，虽然如我上面所说哪怕连续两次冠军都难以称得上王朝，但如果真是想这个赛季一样得稳定，我都愿意尊称您一声大国际，可是这次确实也是多年来国米第一次，冠军让人折服，大国际就显得差点火。

 

本人身了了解此文的引砖效果，国米激进球迷的阵势我是了解的，说实话我无所谓，这些球迷不在真正球迷的考虑范围，有人扔板砖不要紧，反正不是米兰球迷，骂街扔砖丢的都不是米兰的人。只是希望在这的米兰球迷冷静一些，对别人不要求，自己人还是希望表现好的好。米兰球迷不是拿着啤酒瓶子晃来晃去骂街的那种型，也不应该，激情用在看球踢球上，下来思考的时候还是保持冷静，认同我的观点的，给国米道声贺，不认同的把网页一关说声去你妈的就行了，没必要对着骂街。谢谢。

 

最后再次说一声祝贺国米获得意甲冠军。

 

writing the third essay on global security. Need to write something in the break, I feel i have to...

 

In the essay I need to search some materials, read something about the armed conflict. Maybe I am really not suitable to study these stuffs, human rights, security, filled with arguements which can never help.

 

Read something about the incident happened at the begining of this year, Chinese police destroyed a terrorist training camp (the group is defined as terrorist group by United Nation) in Xinjiang. Some medias said it's counter-terrorism, some said it's voilation to human rights with the title of China kill Muslim...I don't want to analyse the incident again here, I don't want to make commets who is right who is wrong. No use of argument, they can only do harm.

 

Just the conflict reminded me the Ugyur I know in my previous university. What a group of nice people they are. A handsome boy Eny, looked like Maldini, play guitar in the band, continue the psot-graduate study with distinction grade. A Uygur couple always walked quietly on the campus, boy with long hair, before they graduated I had chance to took pictures with them. And once I passed a window after the evening study, a beautiful music played by guitar coming out, i stood out of the window and listen for very long time, after the playing, i clapped, a shy uygur boy smiling at me, I said it's beautiful, i love it so much, he shook hands with me and said thank you. And the beautiful girl Gulizbe and her boy friend, before the graduate i gave him my favourite Milan's team symbol. And one of the most beautiful views in CAU (China Agricultural University) is a group of Uygur students sitting on the grass playing guitar and singing. What a beautiful nation they are, love music, friendly, have great food, share most beautiful things in the world, why there are so many conflict between us?

 

The same I thought about Muslim.Why there are so many conflicts? What do people want? I don't want to argue who is right who is wrong in 9/11, many of the "just" people cry for the 3000 deads in the incident, will they also will cry for the people died in Isreal's tanks? I don't really know what's happened around the world. I only know the people around me, my kind-hearted cute lovely flatmate Nida, looked so preatty in the headscarf, my faithful classmate Amna, and my lovely Muslim Uygur friends. All these, all of them, all the beautiful things God showed me in my previous university, make me believe there is no one bad or evil because of nation, because of faith. What we missed and what we need is just a little love, a little peace and a little empathy. Only a little, that's enough for saving the world.

 

Sometime Amna asked me to pray for her, she said she needs the help from the Lord. I did, faithfully, sincerely. Maybe some Christians will not feel comfortable with this. I don't care. As someone told me, only HE cares count. I believe he does. I always said, My Great Lord, Although we are different in some ways, but we have the same Lord, please help them...

 

The same I remember the vicar in Iraq, the one doesn't preach but love. As a Christian one thing is vitally important, WWJD, What Will Jesus Do? I believe Jesus will not considered people as bad, people are equally wrong, he will only love...

 

God of all comfort

faithful and true

fall on your children

in your mercy...

 

As a law student, I am proud of my area, great rational holy career, now sharing some jokes to see how good we are.

 

A guy hijacked in a airport, the aircraft was filled with lawyer who supposed to attend a conference. The guy said, give me one million pound, otherwise I will RELEASE one lawyer every 15 minutes!

 

A guy with a crocadile went into a pub, he asked, do u sell lawyers here? The barman thought the guy is funny, with a crocadile and asking for lawyer, he decided to see what would happen, so he said yes we do serve lawyers. Then the guy said, ok, a beer for me and a lawyer for my crocadile.

 

In UK there used to be a tradition that lawyer ride bike as transport. One driver who doesn't like lawyer very much. Everytime he saw a lawyer with bike on the road he will try to move close to the lawyer and crash him down. One day he was driving on the road, followed by a priest. He saw a lawyer on the road on the bike, he wanted to knock him down, but when he was just about to do it, he realised that a priest was following, he thought it's nor good to do this in front of the priest, so he decided not to do it, and drived back to the right place, suddenly he heard the crash, he was amazed by it, thinking that I didn't do it how could it happened? Then he heard the priest shout, don't worry! I got hiim!

 

Several jokes seems not good for my career. Today talked with Patrice, a kind mature guy whom I like and respect very much, about the lawyer in Malawi. He said he doesn't like the lawyers in Malawi, although he is one of them as job. He said one thing he doesn't like is the lawyers in Malawi think they are the most wonderful thing ever in Malawi. I said is it the character of lawyer in Malawi or generally the lawyer in global south? Actually I should say generally in the world.

 

When I was in China as a LAW student, I felt very unhappy about some things, one of them is that some colleagues took law students as the saviours of Chinese people, if they have some "GIFT" in polity, such as chairman in student union, they will think themselves as the saviours of China. It seems as a law student we can do anything, we are the TOP class in the society.

 

I came to UK, I don't really know how thing change, maybe not. Now I don't need to claim I am a LAW student, because I have something more GREAT to say: I am a HUMAN RIGHTS student, WOW! This time, we think we are the saviours of the whole human beings! How great it is! I really don't know, I am not a saviour, I am a lamb with too many weaknesses. I don't really want to be a "human rights student"or"a human rights protector"or"a lawyer".

 

But the point is not what I will be but what I am, I am still a human rights student, because I still have quite a lot of essays to do...

 

Once I watched football game, Milan was dropping behind, i was so angry. Anya asked me will you curse the team against your team in a match? I said no. She said you are a good Christian.

 

Am I? What is a good Christian?

 

I am writing the essays, too little time left. But this morning a email from Andrew Weston make me think i have to stop and write something.(http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/newscomment.html?in_page_id=1787&in_article_id=447312) It's link to a news on website. I opened the website, it's about a English vicar, Andrew White, in Iraq. The article is very long, I just  scanned over, at the end, i found some comments. One of them is from a Muslim in Iraq. He said he loves Andrew as many people in Iraq do, because he LOVES them as well. What impressed me most is, this Muslim said "He care for us it does not matter if we are Sunni, Shia or Christian. He does not even try and convert us."

 

So what is a good Christian? Not the one who prays and reads the bible every day, fasts two time a week, goes to church every Sunday. Not the one who gives 20% of the salary to the church. Not the one who always keeps talking about Jesus and wants to preach to everyone s/he meets. Not the one who successfully pulls five or even more people into church or MAKES them become Christian.

 

A GOOD CHRISTIAN IS THE ONE WHO LOVES PEOPLE FULLY BY THE STRENGTH, THE CONFIDENCE AND THE COURAGE FROM LORD.

 

The most important thing is LOVE. God is not the source of love, God IS love.

 

No matter who the people beside you are. Anglicant, Catholic, Muslim, Orthodox, Buddhist, Jewish, Confucian or atheist. Argument, critiques, conflicts and hate never ever make any sense, never ever make any helps. To argue with other people, i would rather keep in silence. Although I can't do that sometime, cause I am weak as well and sometimes people are not telling the truth that i can't stand, but, i should try very hard, wining in argument is not important, it has never been the POINT. What we really need is respect, understanding, empathy and LOVE.

 

This is one of the most important reason I became a Christian. I am a pessimistic person, my character is too tender. I study law but I never believe law can solve all the problems of human beings. I don't trust lawyer, media, economist and politician. The only way  for human being out of sad world is God, the method is Love.

 

Religion, human rights, polity, climate change, nuclear weapon, poverty, gender, historical responsibility, homosex, genocide, humanitarian intervention, international market, globel security...People are keep arguing too much and never stop, is anything going better? Yes, here here and there, but don't you notice more and more things are getting worse? Human are too self-conceit, some of them might accept God's existence, some even don't, but they all think they are LIKE God or ARE God! They are thinking or acting or existing like this.

 

Another tiring article( this one) coming out, these days I can't stop thinking these stuffs, I'm so tired i can't even sleep.

 

Finish in a Prayer: Our Great Lord, thank you so much for the LOVE you gave us through Jesus, and thank you so much for the nature of love you show and gave to you children. But please forgive your ridiculous and naive children. They don't mean to do all these, they are just too weak,  too blind. they are keeping finding the way to a better life but not wise enough, they choose the wrong ways. Please direct them, pleace let them don't fall into the meaningless argument any more, please give everyone peace in deep deep heart, please give them LOVE and teach them how to LOVE. My great great Lord, show your Mercy. Amen

 

今天写论文写倦了，停了下来，网上拉着阿颜扯了一通，也没什么正经事儿，哀叹青春呗。想到的到多，写不下来，青春麻，扯呗。

 

总结能力差，那些青春相关的名字记下吧，有的已经逝去不再来，有的还在但可能会流失，所以要努力保护好。只有名字，没有故事，故事都记在了时间里，无须赘述。现在开始，排名不分先后，除了第一个名字，剩下的排名不分先后，想到谁就写谁了。

 

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实在想不起来了...就这样吧

 

 

撤下Nick Cave 的God is in the house， 换成还是nick cave的into my arms。好歌，不多说什么了，适合男女青年。

现在非常论文时期，祷告的弟兄姐妹帮我代祷一下，不祷告的祝愿一下吧...谢谢。

 

Change "God is in the house" to "Into my arms", still Nick Cave. Say no more.

Pray...